Creative Existence

Am I an adult now?

My dearest,

I don’t even know how to start processing what happened today
I think I grew up today

How I have always questioned if I am reliable
Turns out you are put to the test

And I rise to the occasion
And it’s terrifying
And it’s a relief
Thank God

Thank God
And all that is right
And all that is holy

That people trust and turn to me in their darkest moments

Thank God
That I am able to be there

Thank God
That I can be pillar for people arround me

Today
I grew up

Today
I became a woman

Today
I faced something women all over the world face daily

Today
I had the possibility show up

It started with a call of blind panick
Of pain and hurt
The aftermath of violence

I didn’t even have time to think
I didn’t even have to think
Except get her out of there

My mind has never ran so fast
I never got dressed so quickly
I arrive

Faced with a panicked, terrified state

I remain calm. I remain stable. I remain grounded. I am present.

Somehow
I know all the right words to say

Somehow
I seem to get through

Somehow
I am able to hold space for someone in such distress

Bless bless bless bless bless

I am so grateful to get called in your worst moments
You don’t have to go through them alone

Am I allowed to be impressed with myself?
How I responded?
Handled the situation?

There wasn’t any other way to act

We cried
Yet we fight
Cause we are women of love and light

Forever Yours,

Zoë